He was a pain in the neck. He worked in clubs so was always getting home ridiculously late, then 'chilling' and hungry before he slept, and if he was working consecutive days saw no reason to be awake at all during the entire day.
He rarely ever did any housework, even when he wasn't at College or at work and whenever he put washing in he'd fill every bit of the drawer with soap. He'd leave his razor on the edge of the bathroom sink where little hands could get it and he showered for far too long. He never switched off his bedroom lights and his room was horrific - when he last worked away at a festival for a few days, I went in and took out 3 carrier bags of rubbish and more mugs and cups than were left in the cupboards.
But he's my first born. For nearly 4 years he was my only one. Now my baby is my 3 year old who has just started Nursery, and it reminds me so much of when my eldest started, because he looks at me with exactly the same 'ready to cry but being brave' eyes and my heart melts.
Just as I can see the 19 year old in the 3 year old, I can look at my 3 year old and wonder what he'll be like at 19. I wonder how much of his big brother he'll take with him forever.
I thought I'd just be relieved and glad he's moved on, because he really was more than ready, but I miss him already.
PS. He does have more stuff than that, the van was fully loaded and ready, he just wanted to go on ahead - honest. He's only moving a tram ride away, he'll probably be back within the week to visit - probably at dinner time. And he'll probably nick some loo rolls.
:( Jenny it must be awful when they decide to move out even if they aren't going far - I'm dreading it! Sending hugs xx
ReplyDeleteAwww, thank you. It's a weird feeling. It's made me very aware of the fact we have 5 teenagers and in only 5 years time they could possibly all have started Uni and moved on...*gulp* x
DeleteOh I LOVE this post hun. It's like a fast forward to what my boys will be like in a few years time and that even though they're completely infuriating, they'll always be our babies. I love your ending too. Typical kids, only returning to eat and when they need something ;) Really great post xx
ReplyDeleteThank you! We're going to see him in a bit and take him a food parcel of staples. Far too soft! :D
DeleteOh, I was nearly going to type that I can't wait for 18yo to move out, but in all fairness, I know I don't want her to move out for years yet despite how annoying she is around the house.
ReplyDeleteIt's terrible isn't it? We went to see him tonight - took him a provisions parcel that he doesn't really need yet - although he was delighted with clothes washing powder! :D
DeleteLOL that is awesome!! I hope he has a fab time and hope you have made good use of the new space :) x
ReplyDeleteOh yes! The drum kit isn't in the lounge any more!! And the oldest girl gets her own room cos the other two have had his room :) x
DeleteAwww lovely post. Bet he's home all the time "just popping in" and staying for ages and ages. I can't imagine z moving out. I'm dreading it..actually, I'm going to be in denial about it!
ReplyDeleteHe's already been over for tea once, and today we're popping in to see him and drop off his pushbike :D
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